Unit 6 - Loving Kindness and Assessment

This is one I have to really think about and how to describe what I am feeling after this exercise.
There are a lot of thoughts and emotions to this exercise for many reasons.
First we are to describe the exercise: The exercise was a 10 minute exercise, repeating four phrases -
May all individuals gain freedom fron suffering.
May all individuals find sustaind health, happiness, and wholeness.
May I assist all individuals in gaining freedom from suffering.
May I assst allindividuals in finding health, happiness, and wholeness.

First, I need to say all this homework is a bit much and am finding myself with a mixed of emotions, such as: frustration, tiredness, overwhelmed, and sick of having to sit in front of the computer constantly.  It seems never ending, all the things we have to do for this class.  ARRGGHHH!

On the positive side, I love this class.  There are so many positive things to learn from the exercises alone, I love it!  I have learned so much about myself and excited to keep the momentum up.  It is challenging, and even though I am frustrated, I am finding myself waking up every morning wanting to do the subtle mind exercise and learn more about myself. 

From this exercise alone, I initially found it to be very weird and different from the rest.  My initial thought was.....how stupid this is!  I started the exercise anyway, and found it to be similar to praying, the only difference, we are not actually thinking about specific people.  Praying is time consuming because we have to pray for each individual needing prayer.  This was easier, lumping all people into one sentence......May all individuals gain freedom from suffering     and      May all individuals find sustained health, happiness, and wholeness. 
After spending the time with this exercise, I found myself feeling very excited, happy, loving, and enthusiastic for a deed well done.  Thinking about other people and taking the time to say a prayer for all individuals that I know and don't know.  There are so many people around the world that need prayer whom I don't know.  There are so many times I wish I could do more for people that are suffering whom I don't know, and I feel I am doing something by repeating these phrases. 

As for the assessment, I know I am finding myself getting very tired of all I have to do with my busy schedue, being a mom, wife, student, and teaching students how to draw blood.  It is all very tiring in their own ways and  am definitely being stretched too thin.  I do not have enough time in one day to do all the things I want and need to do for myself.  I would love to spend more time praying, bible studying, with my children and I can't.  I find myself very frustrated and tired, getting mentally exhausted and drained.  These are the most areas in my life I am finding stressed.  I am starting to get little headaches everyday.  My greatest possibility for growth and development would be to take the time I need for myself to grow and develop.  I need to spend more time in quiet time.  NO MORE HOMEWORK!  This is the most taxing right now on me.  Once work is done in 3 weeks, I will have so much more time to open up for myself, I can't wait.  I am very anxious for this time to come.  I want to meeee tiiiiimmmmmme.  I want some down time, relaxation time, time in my flower beds, time with my kids, and going to garage sales.  These are all temporary pleasures that help with my long term pleasures.  Always fun to go and find good deals and save money.  I can tell I need some time for my spiritual self just because I am starting to find myself getting very irritated easily.  I can feel my body crying out for this time.  In 3 weeks, can't wait.  Meee tiiimmmme here I come.  This will help me so much towards my integral health.  Need to spend more time meditating, journaling, and stretching my body, getting the frustration ooouuuutttttt!!!  This is my persoanl assessment of myself that I know needs modification. 

Have a great weekend all, it is so warm here, need to get outside and breath some fresh air.  Good bye for  now.  Yvette